A seeker's path

I first connected to my God by the force within

Now it’s the time to know Him better by sin

Although to my deeds skies and earth would shout with disdain

By His mercy I eat, sleep and sin again

But after each moment of sinful joy comes great pain

A strong ache that hits the heart and makes me insane

A wanderer I am in the desert in agony for rain

A soul that resembles to a pot of water that always drains

In this tormenting journey of mine there’s always something to gain

Friends, enemies and most of all some craziness so that one day I become sane

Sometimes I walk, sometimes I get to fly and sometimes I just take the train

In this life one suffers, cries, bleeds and falls many times so that he can rise again

Drowning Jonah

My mission was clear

The orders were simple

But the burden wasn’t easy to bear

At least that’s what I thought

Instead of taking my mission’s route

I ventured into another way with a heart beating fear

I walked down a tunnel; or so it seemed

I found myself wrapped up by dark waves of a raging sea

My lungs grasped for air

That’s getting each day scarce

I sank in an ocean of sharks and whales

  No one of them tried to approach the human who failed

I thought after a long time of drowning I’ll soon hit the bottom

                          But my body kept sinking in this bottomless dark ocean
                                    
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I wanna die

I wanna die and leave all this bullshit behind

I wanna die and fall into decay

Then perhaps there’ll be nothing left to say

I wanna perish in the violent winds of this reality

I want it to be done quickly..to be instantly

With nothing to be mentioned nor to be memorized of me

Cast into the void or a part of the oblivion I wish to be

I wanna die

Perhaps that’s my only way to be free

Released I’d be from the misery they brought on me

And emancipated from my stupid guilt and vanity

I wanna die

Can somebody help me?

Death, will you ever make me free?

                                                    Could you really be that trustworthy?

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Sun is setting down

Darkness is crawling back

 Ropes got silently drawn

 In a scenery of red and black

At the centre of the stage a little boy slowly sat

With a baby wolf between his hands

Suddenly large wings stretched around the set

Then sent raging winds that separated the boy from his pet

He tried to fight it but the winds were strong

Shifting his feelings from sadness to fear

And when it seemed to be the time for him to be gone

Darkness swallowed all that was of him but one tear

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Abomination

Little child rises from a mass of dead 

Of angel and demon his spirit emerge

Now, the sun is still down and everything looks dark

Eventually the light will come, said the sound

Little gardens arose around him, of vineyards and apple trees 

Yet the lonely child sees that there’s nothing for him to eat 

Far ahead the dark horizon sends rays of possibilities 

Randomly heating the little child’s heart then suddenly disappear 

Eventually the light will come again, repeated the sound

After moments of contemplation, the child sees that he’s no more young 

Kneeling to the ground he watches his wrinkles then realizes that the gardens are gone

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The pic is taken from the video song "The Unforgiven I" by Metallica. 

Majnuun

O Mother Eve
see what your daughter did
to me

O father Adam won't you take
the complaint of your son
to Thee

Mother, the love of your daughter
came from the most truthful place
deep within

Father, she's like the one
that you walked with
to the sin

Mother, Father, my heart aches
The light is dying inside
and becoming dim

Her picture is haunting my head

O Mother, I loved her 

I really did

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Like a May butterfly

The Half

Words collide my galaxies and constellations
Hundreds of letters fly around when I try to start our conversations
Ow I wish I could control those words, the 'master of words' as 'I am'
Am I being a foul? Am I loosing some ground? Was it a waste of time?
Roamed the neighborhood for a friendly ear.. my quest seemed to last for long
Evenings went and mornings came then through the rising sun blazed your unique soul
You held keys of my deeply locked gates of the grey 
Oh! If only you can see the colors that have been added since you came
Unbearable life would've been without my loved ones but ..my life without you will never be the same